Things came to a strange impasse with me today. I realised that I am not too bothered anymore. I seem to have lost my ambition regarding my career and my aspirations regarding life in general. I wonder if I should be upset at this, but I’m not. I feel like I don’t want to chase things any more, I don’t want to spend, make, impress or try too hard any more. I’m used to always being on the run and doing things at break-neck speed, I’ve never been this slow before.
I think I still want to achieve, to experience and to serve others, especially my Ummah insh’Allah. I think I still want to find what I was born to do, but I am not feeling very motivated in taking any action towards it. Perhaps I am waiting for it to come to me. It’s such a strange feeling I have never been this calm about life before. I feel strangely contented and serene. Except I do feel a little curious, I wonder where it will take me.
Abd-Allaah ibn Amr ibn al-Aas said: I heard the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) say: "Allah wrote down the decrees of creation fifty thousand years before He created the heavens and the earth." (Muslim 2653)
"To he who is still, the whole world surrenders" ~ Loa Tzu