Looking back on Ramadan, my mind tends to focus on what could have been better – I wish I could have read more Quran spent more time in salah (prayer), given more sadaqah and spent more time in dhikr (remembrance of Allah).
But I know that we live in the real world, where spirituality is to be found in the context of work, housework, the care of our children and our duties towards our families. I know I tried to do what I could each day whilst I was sleepy and tired.
But there are some things I reflect on and feel positive about. The fact that my husband has been doing dawah work whilst I hold the fort at home, I hope to share some of his reward insh’Allah. I made lots and lots of dua for everything big and small I could think of, it felt as if it was a massive chance to get big rewards insh’Allah. I also felt a stillness and peace one night (the 23rd night), that made me think it was Lailut–ul-Qadr (the Night of Power), that was pretty amazing.
I always try to take a good habit from every Ramadan that I can implement throughout the year. This year I did not raise my standard enough to instil a positive new habit. Instead I will take a lesson: to never underestimate the power of dua in times of happiness and in more challenging times.
We have indeed revealed this (Message) in the Night of Power:
And what will explain to thee what the night of power is?
The Night of Power is better than a thousand months.
Therein come down the angels and the Spirit by Allah's permission, on every errand:
Peace!...This until the rise of dawn! — Quran 97 (Al-Qadr), verses 1-5